July 27 thoughts

jon is biking to boston tommorow - strange 60+ mile run - i can't imagine being that extreme. i'm thinking about new shoes, theyre argile wedges - wish i hadn't lost those cranberry colored doc martens from years ago. hmp. i can't stop picking the scab on my right arm - i hate scars. it's inevitable at this point though. "nobody said it was easy - it's such a shame for us to part" sorry - coldplay lyrics. scatterblog. incoherent free write - sorry to anyone trying to decipher any of this jibber-baum. caught lounging at work - and i smoke too many cigarettes these days - give out far too many as well. putting quite the hurting on my wallet. i should remember that sometimes i can find $5. socks, those are better than cigs. Andy's birthday coming quickly, aug. 1st - good ole bob marley poster - yeh i get him some bob marley shit every year. by now he knows it won't be a surprise - some things need to be predictable in order to feel a sence of concreteness in a world so lucid. Laura's birthday soon - not sure about that situation - ugh! yeah new topic - ghio's day too - i guess i know a shitload of leo's now that i think of it. wonder if theyre compatable with virgo's - judging by the social interactions - i'd think not. But then again - my social self needs some work - fuck i'm weird! ha - at least i'm not the type who's constantly trying to impress others, or the attention stared type - and at least i've a blunt idea of what i'm not - but no distictly clear def. of who i am - what type of person i am. it's trivial. beneath the blanket i made, last night - square pusher - and things that could never be, things that can never begin - for every reason imaginable. why must i be allowed time to think things though?