This Weekend was nice.
Enjoyable.
did a bit of yelling though - there was some stress invoved - but nothing that couldn't be gotten over quickly -

poor Kurt (my 4 yr old cousin) - he asked my parents why i don't love him anymore - so sad - i need to pick him up from school sometime this week or something - i've been neglecting my need to be with him.

i saw a few meteors - they were streaky - hadn't been able to watch the sky for as long as i would have liked. got pulled over - my lisence plate lights out again! - this happened just a few months ago!

i'm glad andy is so cool.

ChaiPerseid Happiness

Update...
New Chick was Fired
Made up with Laura
Bought the Argile Wedges
Fell in Love
(not in that order)

I've been drinking a lot of Back Chai Tea. I enjoyed the Chai Latte back in the day - when the fat content of cream wasn't an issue that bothered me. I allways felt that adding milk to tea was odd. Adding a bit of milk and a touch of sugar to the Chai - MmmmMmm - Love It! - My latest Indulgence.

I'm Psyched to see the PERSEIDS on Saturday Night - also Miss Hope's 21st Birthday! Goin out to the field to star gaze up at 37 Sunset Rd. Should be quite nice!

On another note - why does everyone have to be so pissed to see me happy?

DramaSomber CheezEmo

The New Chick at work is pretty chill - we mesh pretty well. I asked about her music taste - and all she told me was MUSE, so i'm doing some research to see what they're all about. Listening - reminds me (i don't want to say it) of Radiohead - but with a more somber note - and a bit more (too) dramatic (and a bit cheesy). Not something that I hate though - I'll say that it's REALLY Well Orchistrated. Nice Sleeping music - but a lil too creepy to rock on the way to the beach or something. Contemplating burning some to play at work on Sunday - but I'm afraid that it might creep out the customers.

"Citizen Erased"
Break me in,
Teach us to cheat
And to lie, cover up
What shouldn't be shared?
All the truth unwinding
Scraping away At my mind
Please stop asking me to describe him
For one moment

I wish you'd hold your stage
With no feelings at allOpen minded
I'm sure I used to be so free
Self expressed, exhausting for all
To see and to be
What you want and what you need
The truth unwinding
Scraping away At my mind
Please stop asking me to describe
For one momentI wish you'd hold your stage
With no feelings at all
Open minded
I'm sure I used to be so free

For one moment
I wish you'd hold your stage
With no feelings at all
Open minded
I'm sure I used to be so free
Wash me away
Clean your body of me
Erase all the memories
They will only bring us pain
And I've seen all I'll ever need


Yeah, it's pretty EMO.

On a more interesting note...
Also, I came accross a nice website that
allowed me to "create my own newspaper"
www.crayon.net - I created The Lovely Miss Mandy Gazette.
Great Place to find info and also a few laughs!
I reccommend making one!

Andy Squares

Had a strange dream last night. The setting was a generic social gathering, a party of sorts - and there were various scenerios played out throughout - of which none so worth mentioning as the image of the ex in this dream. So, I spoke with Andy inside - as I was about to leave (because it had began to snow - i felt this very real sence of nerves about driving - this irrelivent, of course) - I told andy to meet me outside so that we could say goodbye. I wandered through the sea of people, said various goodbyes to nameless faces - and found my belongings (my pocketbook) - and once again found andy - this time his hair different. He and I headed outside - down a set of stairs (well - it was vague) - and upon reaching the out of doors, I saw a figure standing outside. While approaching him - my friend had waited for me in the shadow of a tree - The figure that was standing outsie Andy (the one that I had asked to wait outside for me). He and I exchanged some very heartfelt hugs - much like the ones we had exchanged the other night - with the squeezing, the longevity, the (vibes-energy) feelings - the overwealming sence that what we had for 3 years is gone, though we long for it, that is something neither here nor there, and will not be revisited. After quite awhile, I headed back to the figure near the tree in the shadows, and he and I headed toward my car - Friends.

I've never had a dream before where there were two of one person - an odd concept - but in ths scenario - it makes sence at this point in my life. That I have said my goodbyes with the affectionate - deep feeling part of our relationship, and have replaced it with something entirely different. It's a nice metaphor because he is - now to me - an entirely different figure in my life - he plays a very differnt role - and is almost an entirely diferent person altogether.

I'm glad that he and I can be in each other's lives as friends. Niiice dream too!