Andy Squares

Had a strange dream last night. The setting was a generic social gathering, a party of sorts - and there were various scenerios played out throughout - of which none so worth mentioning as the image of the ex in this dream. So, I spoke with Andy inside - as I was about to leave (because it had began to snow - i felt this very real sence of nerves about driving - this irrelivent, of course) - I told andy to meet me outside so that we could say goodbye. I wandered through the sea of people, said various goodbyes to nameless faces - and found my belongings (my pocketbook) - and once again found andy - this time his hair different. He and I headed outside - down a set of stairs (well - it was vague) - and upon reaching the out of doors, I saw a figure standing outside. While approaching him - my friend had waited for me in the shadow of a tree - The figure that was standing outsie Andy (the one that I had asked to wait outside for me). He and I exchanged some very heartfelt hugs - much like the ones we had exchanged the other night - with the squeezing, the longevity, the (vibes-energy) feelings - the overwealming sence that what we had for 3 years is gone, though we long for it, that is something neither here nor there, and will not be revisited. After quite awhile, I headed back to the figure near the tree in the shadows, and he and I headed toward my car - Friends.

I've never had a dream before where there were two of one person - an odd concept - but in ths scenario - it makes sence at this point in my life. That I have said my goodbyes with the affectionate - deep feeling part of our relationship, and have replaced it with something entirely different. It's a nice metaphor because he is - now to me - an entirely different figure in my life - he plays a very differnt role - and is almost an entirely diferent person altogether.

I'm glad that he and I can be in each other's lives as friends. Niiice dream too!